I don’t want to be a thought leader. 
I don’t want to be visible.
I don’t want my face on online ads and Facebook page covers.

It feels uncomfortable for me to think about having my own photoshoot. Even worse: my own video shoot for my ‘signature program.’ Heck, do I have to have a signature program?

I said yes to online business because of a simple belief:

Every one of us has a unique, powerful light within us and when we figure out how to shine that light, the ripple effects of change are endless and inevitable.

This was my way of changing the world, making it better.

 

But it turns out, I have to get my belief out into the world for it to be heard, for anyone to agree with this message enough and be inspired by it enough to figure out how they shine…

And for my message to get out into the world, I must be seen, heard, engaged with.

Hence the social media profiles and photoshoots and signature programs and thought leadership…

Hence the visibility…

Hence the thing that started out as a simple belief easily turns into being about me instead of what I believe.

 

I’m sure things don’t exactly have to be done this way...but regardless of the way things are done, the universal truth is that once you believe something, once you’re convicted by something, and you stand on it (whatever standing on it looks like for you), you become a leader. Which means someone is following you. Whether you like it or not.

It just so happens that in today’s world, for a majority of cases, we follow our leaders virtually. 

Hence, the social media profiles and photoshoots and signature programs and thought leadership…

Hence the visibility…

Hence, the thing that started out as a simple belief easily turns into being about me instead of what I believe.

So it’s the leader’s job, MY job, to keep it about the core belief I started with, to shift the focus when it becomes too much about me and what I think others should do...or at least I think that’s part of my job.

 

The risk is that it feels reeeally good when it becomes all about me: everyone clamoring to know what I think, to know my story, to know how they can model their lives after mine…

And then I turn into a fool blinded by my own light - a light that is dimmed in the blinding. I become an imploding star in a sense:

Because at some point I bought into the lie that my story, my thoughts, I (little old me), was more important than the people who I was supposed to be leading...that I had it all together and they? They really didn’t, they were a hot mess and so they looked me (which is a straightup lie ‘cause me? Have it all together? Really? Yeah, right).

And of course once I bought into that lie, I was forced to keep the lie going, to convince myself that this lie I’m believing IS true…

Hence the social media profiles and photoshoots and signature programs and thought leadership…

Hence the visibility…

Hence the thing that started out as a simple belief easily turns into being about me instead of what I believe, what my community and I believe.


Maybe my belief has to be much much bigger than me for it to never become about me.
Or maybe as a leader I have to become comfortable with it being about me to some degree.
Or maybe I should just back off this whole leadership thing if I never want it to be about me…

But how can I, how can you, how can anyone back off of something they are convicted by?


And the utter irony of this is, here I am writing a blog post!
I am writing a blog post about how I feel and how I think -_- 

Maybe I’m just a big phony! Lol. Seriously though, maybe I DO want to be seen and heard and engaged with, maybe I deep down I DO want to be a leader.

Or maybe I just want to be honest. And maybe I want honesty in return...

 

Obviously I don’t have a concrete conclusion about any of this. ^_^

Long story short though: I DO want this to be about you.
I want this little corner of the interwebs to be about how you can live your most authentic, bright, change-agent kinda life.

And if it ever becomes too much about me, feel free to call me on my crap: I don’t want to be a silly imploding star when there’s enough space in the eternal sky for all of us.

 

 

Any particular sentence resonate? Any thoughts on this subject or in response to anything I said? Leave a comment below  ^_^

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